I have so many people that ask me how I am doing...and I have no other reply than, "I'm ok". That isn't the truth, in fact far from it, but the amount of baggage that could be unloaded in that response no one person has the time for. We would need to schedule appointments that included a chaise lounge chair, an unlimited source of tissues and cucumbers to combat the puffy eyes that will follow these said sessions... you might even need a session yourself when I'm done. There are many times when the perfect opportunity does present itself to unload, but I can't...I'm in my "BE STRONG" mode and while in this mode I can't "feel". My emotions are turned off so that I can have a somewhat productive day. I have a lot of people say, "You are so strong, I don't know how you do it." What they don't realize is, I don't do it. I do not face the gravity of my daughters cancer everyday. My spirit has ran and hid deep inside, it's my shell you see walking around. There is no way that I would be able to get up every morning and get myself dressed and go about my day if I didn't. I have days when I don't feel and I can function, and other days when the load becomes too much to bear and I cannot hold them back any longer. I just sob. Uncontrollably. My grief is suffocating. I start having anxiety attacks and my chest hurts and I feel as though I can't breathe. These are my stay at home and hide from the world days. Once I let enough out where I can get a hold of myself again....I retreat back into my shell until the next time.
That's all that I have time for tonight...So, pull up a chair....and stay for a bit. Please feel free to message me if you like. I'm just a fellow cancer mom trying to survive.
infertility for easy Conception. (No more adoption, with Dr Itua your problem will solve and you will have your child with ease.I have been blog Sites for a while now and today i felt like i should share my story because i was a victim too. I had endometriosis for 18 years and i never thought i would ever get a cure due to the terrible symptoms i had and this made it impossible for me to get pregnant even after 12 years of marriage and it was a serious issue. I got to know about Dr. Itua on Blog Site who treated someone and the person shared a story of how she got a cure and let her contact details, i contacted Dr. Itua and he actually confirmed it and i decided to give a try too and use his herbal medicine that was how my burden ended completely. My son will be 2 this december and also I was suffering from brain cancer which I also explain to Dr Itua so he prepared herbal medicine for me which I drank for two weeks to cure my brian cancer so if you are suffering from any kind of diseases you can contact Dr Itua herbal center to get your cure successfully, i am grateful to God and thankful to his medicine too.Dr Itua Can As Well Cure The Following Desease…Cancer,Hiv,Herpes,Epilepsy, Hepatitis B,Liver Inflammatory,Diabetes,Fibroid, Lupus, ALS, HPV, Erectile dysfunction, Menstrual Cramp, Get Your Ex Back, If you have (A just reach his on (drituaherbalcenter@gmail. com Or Whatsapp Number..+2348149277967)He can also advise you on how to handle some marital issues.He's a good man.
ReplyDelete